Friday, September 22, 2006
9:03 PM
dear diary,
today was really great but it just din end the way it should. heh. game against pioneer was okay just couldnt really provide the finishing touches. i dun even know the score. cant be bothered about it too. cos i know when we play them again it'll be 80-0. confirmed. yeahhhh.
im starting to feel so uptight playing on the field alrdy. blardy hell thanks to who? that guy la! the one with the devilish looks and demanding commands. just because i din go according to HIS plan. he comes and totally screw my game up. if hes like that, might as well just play himself right? what the hell. expect me to follow everything he says even tho deep down inside i know it wont work out? just cause i decided to do a lil kick after discussing with my teammates, he blardy shouts at me like im his lil shit toy. blardy pisses me off. its like. i have no damn freedom to do what i wanna and what i have confidence in. he just forces you to do everything he wants. everything i do right he doesnt say anything. anything i do wrong only the starts flaring up like crazy on me alone. dun like me say la. heh. during the team talk. he went "listen to brandon or lennie. they will make a decision. no decision is right or wrong. just make a decision and follow it." then i did and shit happened. then after the game, another guy went "we shouldnt play like robots." YEAHHHHH RIGHT. contradictry premises. philosophy teacher yip meng fai will be so proud of me. (:
well. thanks to everyone for ur encouragement. i really appreciate it. makes me feel much more welcome and right. like what chew and kasong said "at the end they only rmb the players, not the coaches." heh.
so yeah. that pretty sums up what i feel. i will continue to train hard for my team and my frens. not for ppl who treat me like crap. (:
I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life.
Girl, your all i ever wanted.
Friday, September 22, 2006
9:03 PM
dear diary,
today was really great but it just din end the way it should. heh. game against pioneer was okay just couldnt really provide the finishing touches. i dun even know the score. cant be bothered about it too. cos i know when we play them again it'll be 80-0. confirmed. yeahhhh.
im starting to feel so uptight playing on the field alrdy. blardy hell thanks to who? that guy la! the one with the devilish looks and demanding commands. just because i din go according to HIS plan. he comes and totally screw my game up. if hes like that, might as well just play himself right? what the hell. expect me to follow everything he says even tho deep down inside i know it wont work out? just cause i decided to do a lil kick after discussing with my teammates, he blardy shouts at me like im his lil shit toy. blardy pisses me off. its like. i have no damn freedom to do what i wanna and what i have confidence in. he just forces you to do everything he wants. everything i do right he doesnt say anything. anything i do wrong only the starts flaring up like crazy on me alone. dun like me say la. heh. during the team talk. he went "listen to brandon or lennie. they will make a decision. no decision is right or wrong. just make a decision and follow it." then i did and shit happened. then after the game, another guy went "we shouldnt play like robots." YEAHHHHH RIGHT. contradictry premises. philosophy teacher yip meng fai will be so proud of me. (:
well. thanks to everyone for ur encouragement. i really appreciate it. makes me feel much more welcome and right. like what chew and kasong said "at the end they only rmb the players, not the coaches." heh.
so yeah. that pretty sums up what i feel. i will continue to train hard for my team and my frens. not for ppl who treat me like crap. (:
I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life.
Girl, your all i ever wanted.